{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Colorcrrush","provider_url":"https:\/\/colorcrrush.com\/de","author_name":"colorcrrush","author_url":"https:\/\/colorcrrush.com\/de\/author\/colorcrrush\/","title":"Something personal. &#8226; Colorcrrush","type":"rich","width":600,"height":338,"html":"<blockquote class=\"wp-embedded-content\" data-secret=\"8Q9kGETL8b\"><a href=\"https:\/\/colorcrrush.com\/de\/something-personal\/\">Something personal.<\/a><\/blockquote><iframe sandbox=\"allow-scripts\" security=\"restricted\" src=\"https:\/\/colorcrrush.com\/de\/something-personal\/embed\/#?secret=8Q9kGETL8b\" width=\"600\" height=\"338\" title=\"&#8222;Something personal.&#8220; &#8211; Colorcrrush\" data-secret=\"8Q9kGETL8b\" frameborder=\"0\" marginwidth=\"0\" marginheight=\"0\" scrolling=\"no\" class=\"wp-embedded-content\"><\/iframe><script>\n\/*! This file is auto-generated *\/\n!function(d,l){\"use strict\";l.querySelector&&d.addEventListener&&\"undefined\"!=typeof URL&&(d.wp=d.wp||{},d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage||(d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage=function(e){var t=e.data;if((t||t.secret||t.message||t.value)&&!\/[^a-zA-Z0-9]\/.test(t.secret)){for(var s,r,n,a=l.querySelectorAll('iframe[data-secret=\"'+t.secret+'\"]'),o=l.querySelectorAll('blockquote[data-secret=\"'+t.secret+'\"]'),c=new RegExp(\"^https?:$\",\"i\"),i=0;i<o.length;i++)o[i].style.display=\"none\";for(i=0;i<a.length;i++)s=a[i],e.source===s.contentWindow&&(s.removeAttribute(\"style\"),\"height\"===t.message?(1e3<(r=parseInt(t.value,10))?r=1e3:~~r<200&&(r=200),s.height=r):\"link\"===t.message&&(r=new URL(s.getAttribute(\"src\")),n=new URL(t.value),c.test(n.protocol))&&n.host===r.host&&l.activeElement===s&&(d.top.location.href=t.value))}},d.addEventListener(\"message\",d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage,!1),l.addEventListener(\"DOMContentLoaded\",function(){for(var e,t,s=l.querySelectorAll(\"iframe.wp-embedded-content\"),r=0;r<s.length;r++)(t=(e=s[r]).getAttribute(\"data-secret\"))||(t=Math.random().toString(36).substring(2,12),e.src+=\"#?secret=\"+t,e.setAttribute(\"data-secret\",t)),e.contentWindow.postMessage({message:\"ready\",secret:t},\"*\")},!1)))}(window,document);\n\/\/# sourceURL=https:\/\/colorcrrush.com\/wp-includes\/js\/wp-embed.min.js\n<\/script>","description":"The last days, my situation at home got worse and worse at worse. I live at home with my mom and her wife (yes, yes!) but I&#8217;m not that often at home because I mostly go to work\/university and sleep at my boyfriend&#8217;s home. The last days I was at home and realized that my mom was superaggressive all the time. No matter what I talked about she suddenly yelled at me. She was always a person who gets furious very easily (due to her zodiac I guess xD) but she also calmes down very fast. But this time, she is just angry all the time. I thought it was because of her menopause (because she got more angry since that period starts) but now it is really unbeareable. I&#8217;m afraid she&#8217;ll yell at me even if I said &#8220;hello&#8221;. o.o But yesterday I realized what was her real intention, and why she is so mad and angry and furious all the time: it is connected with my leav\u00edng for Japan next Thursday. She \u00eds mad because her only kid will be far far away from her because she never experienced that (I&#8217;m her only child and we were separated for 2 weeks at maximum the last 22 years, haha.) You guys should know that my mom is more a lion than a mother: she protects her child no matter what. She really really cares for me and does things other mom&#8217;s wouldn&#8217;t do perhaps. (She even makes a meal&nbsp;for me when I come home from work by midnight! Or she buys the newest beauty stuff just because she knows I&#8217;ll wanna have it.) So thats why I have to say I&#8217;m honestly sad about the fact that I am the one making her so mad. I don&#8217;t want her to worry that much but I guess there is nothing I could do about. It&#8217;s a shame to see her so sad. I know that it&#8217;s the hardest thing for her to leave her little baby behind.&nbsp; I don&#8217;t know but I wouldn&#8217;t expect to be so hard for her, I don&#8217;t know. It makes sense now but my mom is very strong so I didn&#8217;t expect her being that mad about the fact. But nevertheless I&#8217;m very happy to be loved so much for my family &#8211; I really should be graceful. And write many many letters to her when I&#8217;m abroad for that year. \u2665 (Just needed to tell someone, hoping you all don&#8217;t bother..) Found them last night. Fell in love with this song."}