1.0Colorcrrushhttps://colorcrrush.com/decolorcrrushhttps://colorcrrush.com/de/author/colorcrrush/rich600338<blockquote class="wp-embedded-content" data-secret="7qgxokoT27"><a href="https://colorcrrush.com/de/254-2/"></a></blockquote><iframe sandbox="allow-scripts" security="restricted" src="https://colorcrrush.com/de/254-2/embed/#?secret=7qgxokoT27" width="600" height="338" title="„“ – Colorcrrush" data-secret="7qgxokoT27" frameborder="0" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0" scrolling="no" class="wp-embedded-content"></iframe><script type="text/javascript"> /* <![CDATA[ */ /*! This file is auto-generated */ !function(d,l){"use strict";l.querySelector&&d.addEventListener&&"undefined"!=typeof URL&&(d.wp=d.wp||{},d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage||(d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage=function(e){var t=e.data;if((t||t.secret||t.message||t.value)&&!/[^a-zA-Z0-9]/.test(t.secret)){for(var s,r,n,a=l.querySelectorAll('iframe[data-secret="'+t.secret+'"]'),o=l.querySelectorAll('blockquote[data-secret="'+t.secret+'"]'),c=new RegExp("^https?:$","i"),i=0;i<o.length;i++)o[i].style.display="none";for(i=0;i<a.length;i++)s=a[i],e.source===s.contentWindow&&(s.removeAttribute("style"),"height"===t.message?(1e3<(r=parseInt(t.value,10))?r=1e3:~~r<200&&(r=200),s.height=r):"link"===t.message&&(r=new URL(s.getAttribute("src")),n=new URL(t.value),c.test(n.protocol))&&n.host===r.host&&l.activeElement===s&&(d.top.location.href=t.value))}},d.addEventListener("message",d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage,!1),l.addEventListener("DOMContentLoaded",function(){for(var e,t,s=l.querySelectorAll("iframe.wp-embedded-content"),r=0;r<s.length;r++)(t=(e=s[r]).getAttribute("data-secret"))||(t=Math.random().toString(36).substring(2,12),e.src+="#?secret="+t,e.setAttribute("data-secret",t)),e.contentWindow.postMessage({message:"ready",secret:t},"*")},!1)))}(window,document); //# sourceURL=https://colorcrrush.com/wp-includes/js/wp-embed.min.js /* ]]> */ </script>Hey my dear readers, I am so sorry for the lack of creative or any posts whatsoever. The interview for the scholarship didn’t work out and how I have to apply for 490234849 other programs in only two weeks and it is a shitload of paperwork. Just. So. Much. Paperwork. The scholarship wasn’t really meant to be: They didn’t really look for people who already knew Japanese or studied Japanese Studies, they wanted experts on any other field who could connect this WITH Japanese. I still don’t know why exactly they invited me but I knew that wasn’t my place to be. Therefore, the interviews went terrible and I didn’t got in. That’s okay but since I had to prepare so much for the interviews I’m lacking behind now with everything. I have so much university, really bad times for working shifts and so much to do, I can’t even. I am highly unmotivated and when I have some time I lay around in bed pretending that I’m dead. I am really concerned at the moment because I don’t know what the future holds for me. I don’t know if I’ll be able to continue to study or not, I don’t even know if I’ll continue to live in this city for the next two years or not. This uncertainty scares the hell out of me and leaves me in a really bad mood. Just that you know. I really hope I can come up with something cool and funny asap, but I think it might take a week or two to get everything sorted. Thank you for your patience and thank you so much for your encouraging comments! Always appreciate the love <3 Hope y’all have a happy week and hopefully talk to you all soon! Lots of love, Samhttp://4.bp.blogspot.com/-bpAaWDeqr9k/UYgusD__m0I/AAAAAAAAFrk/GX8PEidrzK8/s1600/a9c2b7f1997d08d1a9096863c89efe53_large.jpg